And thus begins the waiting game

[kol]

First of all, thank you guys so much for your comments on the last entry. There isn't much to be said, a battle still to be fought, but the shock and despair of yesterday has faded, replaced by a creeping coldness, the certainty about this time. She's had a few close calls over the years, but this is worlds different. There is a certainty-- we know it is cancer, just not the stage or how far it has ravaged. Cancer has become the reality, and now we simply wait to see precisely what must be fought.

We find out on Tuesday.

It was hard today, listening to how little hope she has. How little hope my mother has. I refuse to give in to the odds, to the anxieties eating on the edge of consciousness. There is always hope-- no matter what we hear on Tuesday, there is always hope.