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Jan. 31st, 2011 08:29 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
kolI'm blessed that the people in my life understand and work with my schedule; I just wish I could get my act together and figure how to work with what I need to do, have time for "play," and still get enough sleep. I miss being productive outside of work, but I'm not willing to sacrifice my sleep like I use to in order to accomplish it. The current system of trying to get work done while in bed, also trying to get brain to go to sleep is understandably not working. I'm either staying up too late working on stupid things... or I'm going to sleep early and flaking out on people. Well, effective change comes about by admitting you have a problem, and boy do I have one.
Things are not helped by my 4am shifts; in order to get the bare minimum of sleep to fend off exhaustion I have to be out by 7pm at the latest. This still gives me plenty of time to get things done, I just have to discipline myself and stop working in bed. I have to be honest about what I need to do during a particular day and get my brain to understand that "play" time has to come after I've gotten some work done. I love tumblr pic-spams, but they should be a treat, not an hourly engagement.
So I'm going to try something for the rest of the week and see if it helps. My writer-brain is completely shut down, so I'm going to try and fix that this week, too. I'm going to bring my laptop to work with me and spend a half hour to an hour at the tables, working to unlock the writer-brain from its web of doubt and shame-spiral. And when I get home, I'm limiting myself to 2 hours of internet time, and only while I'm at the desk. And I'm going to buy a temporary mouse, because trying to use the broken tablet is driving me insane, and you can't really focus on being productive when you are that frustrated by having to click 15-20 times for the damn text to be selected XD.
I think this is going to help a lot, since I've been feeling as if I have NO TIME and clinging to my "fun" internet time to get me through the inner turmoil I have. But in retrospect I have quite a lot of time at my disposal... I'm just not using it effectively. Thumbs up for perspective changes?
Things are not helped by my 4am shifts; in order to get the bare minimum of sleep to fend off exhaustion I have to be out by 7pm at the latest. This still gives me plenty of time to get things done, I just have to discipline myself and stop working in bed. I have to be honest about what I need to do during a particular day and get my brain to understand that "play" time has to come after I've gotten some work done. I love tumblr pic-spams, but they should be a treat, not an hourly engagement.
So I'm going to try something for the rest of the week and see if it helps. My writer-brain is completely shut down, so I'm going to try and fix that this week, too. I'm going to bring my laptop to work with me and spend a half hour to an hour at the tables, working to unlock the writer-brain from its web of doubt and shame-spiral. And when I get home, I'm limiting myself to 2 hours of internet time, and only while I'm at the desk. And I'm going to buy a temporary mouse, because trying to use the broken tablet is driving me insane, and you can't really focus on being productive when you are that frustrated by having to click 15-20 times for the damn text to be selected XD.
I think this is going to help a lot, since I've been feeling as if I have NO TIME and clinging to my "fun" internet time to get me through the inner turmoil I have. But in retrospect I have quite a lot of time at my disposal... I'm just not using it effectively. Thumbs up for perspective changes?
