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[kol]

I went on a 7 1/2 mile bike ride yesterday. Just kept pedaling, no idea where I was going, taking random streets in a vague northernly direction before heading in search of dinner. And then deciding no, I want something ELSE, and adding another mile and a half to that portion of the ride. And then I made the long trek home, grinning like a loon, my heart beating thick and steady in my chest.

And it was great. It was freeing. And I was crying most of the way home, not because my legs were on fire (the inner thighs were aching today before I started sitting on the exercise ball), but because the release was so profoundly powerful. I felt more alive pedaling down those busy and not so busy streets, watching the world unfold around my bright eyes, than I have for weeks.

I had a very big oh out there on that bike. And a few smaller ones.  I lost a lot of moisture from my eyes. And I probably earned a few glares from people with all the profanities I was uttering when a few of the biggest ohs hit me.  But none of it mattered, because I earned this rightness out there that I haven't had in a long time.

Can't say for sure, but I'm probably not going to be on AIM as much for a while, especially as we are almost to vacation time. I'll still be out there and I'm not going on hiatus-- just need to take care of some things without getting distracted as I am wont to do when logged into AIM.

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*hug*

Glad you're feeling better. :)