holy bananas ex boyfriend just called and I might be going to one of his gigs wtf did I just do THIS IS WHY I DON'T NORMALLY ANSWER THE PHONE. *_______________________*
But when I get on the phone that word magically deletes itself from my memory XD
Oh man I freaked the hell out. THANK YOU MOM FOR GIVING HIM MY NUMBER. No coincidence I got off the phone and IMMEDIATELY BEGAN CLEANING THE BEJESUS OUT OF APARTMENT. While going OMG OMG OMG. XD You would be laughing so if you could see me, lol XD
And it isn't so much that I don't want to see him again, I just don't want to, you know, do it without a buddy there to keep me from doing anything stupid, because around him teenage!Kol comes out and just does stupid things. whhhhhy does this happen on my one day off to hit nano goal whyyyy XD
EVEN MORE REASON you should call him back and tell him you're just too damn worn out to make it sorry so glad you called though thanks for thinking of me. If you phrase it like that, without having to search the files to find the NO word that keeps scurrying off when it sees the phone approach your mouth, it might be easier.
FIERCE HUGS, KOL. YOU CAN DO IT. *lends you her Bitch!Hat and cheers you on from afar* <333
I will wait for tomorrow to do it though because OMG CANNOT DEAL HOLY SHIT WTF LIFE XD. Mostly because I totally lied and said I was going into work because OMG HOW ELSE WAS I GOING TO GET OFF THE PHONE QUICKLY *__*.
However, I just cleaned 3/4th of my apartment, including my desk, and oh my god I feel so much better now. So maybe this is a good thing? Hey, anything that creates progress can't be all bad XD
Boys make a lot of us a mess, dear. <3 You're only human. Pixie is right, though (as usual). You have to take care of yourself and if you can't, you can't. You need to enjoy your day off. I don't know when this thing is but, if it's very soon, poop on him for giving you no notice!
Seriously, you can say no without lying or saying no. Just be sure to thank him for thinking of you and say "maybe a raincheck".
Stupid boys and their messes ;___;. But he's got five gigs in December, so it isn't short notice, actually, he just wanted to meet and talk. And we use to be best friends, so it would be nice to just talk, but ... this month has left me a little ragged, so I don't think i can do that just yet.
But it is kind of telling first reaction was to burry the phone under the couch and not want to turn it on ever again X3.
It's very telling and, sometimes, you have to listen to that impulse. I know you're also trying to balance it and be nice and be yourself; you don't want to hurt his feelings and you don't want your issues to create issues for others... Believe me. I so know.
But there is absolutely no shame in not being able to face something This Instant. Especially not with the month you've just had. If you can avoid putting yourself into a worse tailspin before you're ready, do it.
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Oh man I freaked the hell out. THANK YOU MOM FOR GIVING HIM MY NUMBER. No coincidence I got off the phone and IMMEDIATELY BEGAN CLEANING THE BEJESUS OUT OF APARTMENT. While going OMG OMG OMG. XD You would be laughing so if you could see me, lol XD
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FIERCE HUGS, KOL. YOU CAN DO IT. *lends you her Bitch!Hat and cheers you on from afar* <333
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However, I just cleaned 3/4th of my apartment, including my desk, and oh my god I feel so much better now. So maybe this is a good thing? Hey, anything that creates progress can't be all bad XD
Why do boys make me into such a mess X0.
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Seriously, you can say no without lying or saying no. Just be sure to thank him for thinking of you and say "maybe a raincheck".
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But it is kind of telling first reaction was to burry the phone under the couch and not want to turn it on ever again X3.
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But there is absolutely no shame in not being able to face something This Instant. Especially not with the month you've just had. If you can avoid putting yourself into a worse tailspin before you're ready, do it.
Sometimes it's the only way.