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Bitchy Alert:!
Sometimes I wake up and wonder how I got to this point in my life. How I became so crazy-insecure about the most trivial things.
I was a free spirit, but now? I constantly worry. I feel disconnected from the majority of the people I talk to. And I'm *tired* of talking to people I don't like and trying to put a nice face on the situation.
Case in point: I absolutely adore everyone in Missing Shard, I sometimes felt like I was in the chats for only humor value. I tried to limit my crazy fangirling, attempted to focus more on less impulsive glee writing in my journal, and just put my head down and ignore the insecurity. And you know what? It has worked, mostly. Last night I felt horrible, but the feeling passed and the true companionship that makes MS the best game OF ALL TIME slipped in.
I love you guys T_T
I don't talk to everyone in MS. I only talk to people I enjoy talking to-- and I have a feeling that if I want to be happy when I log on AIM, I have to start doing this in other games as well.
Because I really can't stand talking to a few people in a game or two. I dislike them, I don't want anything to do with them, and any interaction with them makes me want to scream and throw myself onto my bed and have a temper tantrum worthy of any five year old.
Frankly, I don't have enough time to entertain the belief that I like everyone, so if I seem kind of bitchy in chats, you know why XD.
ALSO IF PEOPLE ARE WANTING BIRTHDAY CARD EXCHANGES, I AM FOR NEEDING TO KNOW YOUR ADDY. /Keispeak
I was a free spirit, but now? I constantly worry. I feel disconnected from the majority of the people I talk to. And I'm *tired* of talking to people I don't like and trying to put a nice face on the situation.
Case in point: I absolutely adore everyone in Missing Shard, I sometimes felt like I was in the chats for only humor value. I tried to limit my crazy fangirling, attempted to focus more on less impulsive glee writing in my journal, and just put my head down and ignore the insecurity. And you know what? It has worked, mostly. Last night I felt horrible, but the feeling passed and the true companionship that makes MS the best game OF ALL TIME slipped in.
I love you guys T_T
I don't talk to everyone in MS. I only talk to people I enjoy talking to-- and I have a feeling that if I want to be happy when I log on AIM, I have to start doing this in other games as well.
Because I really can't stand talking to a few people in a game or two. I dislike them, I don't want anything to do with them, and any interaction with them makes me want to scream and throw myself onto my bed and have a temper tantrum worthy of any five year old.
Frankly, I don't have enough time to entertain the belief that I like everyone, so if I seem kind of bitchy in chats, you know why XD.
ALSO IF PEOPLE ARE WANTING BIRTHDAY CARD EXCHANGES, I AM FOR NEEDING TO KNOW YOUR ADDY. /Keispeak